clear and restless danger
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so tired of hyper thinkingmind is energizedcraving and grasping for something
it is clearbut restlessthoughts come and go
fear of silence?causing Existential Angst to be felt more deeply?some call it samsara
fear that nothing got resolved today?that it will never be resolvedall the power I have, not being shared?
Mu!Laugh!Ha!
have to practice going into this pointlike and dislikes pulls and pushesclearly, ‘I’ exists too much
my lack of validation is lack of trust?lack of feeling it?or yet another construct
some people make me relaxed and soothedno problems trusting then,leaving the bigger contextwhy can’t I be relaxed on my own?
all my practice?
(Tulku pg 123)If awareness doesn’t choose a goal toward which energy can be directed, energy becomes inconsistent, chaotic and confused, and eventually turns toward dullness.Energy without concentration is scattered and restless: instead of being productive, it feeds on dissatisfaction and tends toward extremes of emotionality and ultimately collapse.Without energy, awareness and concentration are quickly depleted; if they do continue to operate, we fall into daydreams or pleasant and essentially meaningless images.
So Adderall works by increasing concentration :-)
Releasing concentration feels directly negative.