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amidst the raging stormI can feel it, the danger, the forceAir - intense aliveness
in the turbulent white water rushing riverI can immerse into the cold and freshWater - intense embrace
in the steaming strong emotionsI can go into them, no fear or doubtFire - intense connection
in the desert landscape, driving endlesslyI can disappear into itEarth - intense awareness
but my sorrow iscoming home after an active daySpace - sometimes makes me nostalgic and melancholic
I never try to numb it, or escape from itmaybe I am too impatient, too used to activity, but not busyness
my Chinese name is Chuan Nai, ‘transformation and perseverance’I keep looking for that inconceivable gateit is close, but I have not located it exactlycan hear it move in the wind
I do know I have to lose myself completely and disappear into the Darkness to find the gateit is just so hard when no one truly understands thatit is so hard without a deep compassionit is scary to enter the stream, knowing ‘I’ cannot ever return as ‘me’
want someone to tell me ‘it is ok’, but of course, no one can ever do that
air, water, fire, earth and spacetogether as onebut when?