pure happy suffering
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impermanence is joyful
pure suffering is beautiful because it is always there - in various forms
do not dilute it with numbness artificial escapes(can’t since 04 - NO point to turn back to - ever)
strength coming from emptiness invading all directionsin A W E
strength coming from absolute DISASSOCIATED compassionNOT fucking empathy - you don’t get it dearest mummy
strength coming from passing through gate less gates feeling shore waves in your face blistering blue sand emerald green horses running wild splashing sound of tornado invisible currents shock torrents dark undercutting oceans and Earth globes beyond
strength coming from within the core of the sub atomic presencethe purple quantum fields up side down and negative spinthe extension of myriads of nothing waves nothing movements nothing minds
fields of complete nothing buildings washed walls adobe stone the Spanish brought into our lands, strange creatures, strange sounds, green magnetic blood, ultra everything
no not thinking not-thinking arising appearances with time into space and back from graves and cremation ashes power herbs of ancient lands, Anasazi
beaches of nothing cities mirage blinding flash silver sunrisesphinx leaving post to disappear into maze of yawn laid out
cyclops eating water to empty oceans still seeing no tideexpression of nothingness in eyes seeing far back in time
breaches in chains of command and evidence all break down order is exposed as criminal futility in language and subtle corruption walls hollow as rain filled drums fall
the white lands of light inside compressed nuclei inside fusion of star fuel born out of extraordinary different foreign fleets of cascading accelerating nothing illuminated empty fields
at the edge there is a peculiar pattern repeating sound vinyl pressure
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‘I’ realize 'I am’ in darkness bliss
not what I thoughtall the worn out phrases are bullshitnot what I mean
another level after all lives are run outimposing order is just not an optionit crashed 111111 years ago when they arrived
not what Iall phrases are deadnot what
DISOWN this whole notion of ‘reality’; as it is completely hollow; and fragile
bliss beyond beyond the sensesthere is another angle
crying now, as the forms are deadbirth and death are deademptiness is dead.
next universe comes next moment
with all the white yellow flowerson her black dress,that she wanted to throw away,but I kept insisting,so pretty
a picture one day
the blueish pearl bracelet causing her to smile insidethe beaches of missing my beingthe presence I never seen before in human formthe focus and precisionthe happy and light voicetouching my heart
deeply wordless moment forever.
next universe comes next moment
deep coredeep vastdeep hyper
this is contradictionshort breath
primordial extra terrestrial source inside usthe mind gate opens yet to realizealayavijnana
before bloodbefore sensingbefore blink
realmless dhyana
staying as that doesn’t belongstaying as I don’t belonganymoreanywhere
as
I don’t believeI don’t expressI don’t have any opinionI don’t have any knowledgeI don’t have any experienceI don’t have any spaceI don’t have any mindI don’t have any thingI don’t have any bodyI don’t have anyI don’t have any structureI don’t have any constructI don’t have any conceptI don’t have any protocolI don’t have any control
as I don’t
have any pasthave any presenthave any future
I am
freed from freedomfreed from prisonfreed from formfreed from birthfreed from deathultimately free.
next universe comes next moment
the hot breezesun setcorn field, moving
as she walks beneath the old oaksas we put the wet towels to dryweighed downto not move
no peopleas we play in the playgroundtoo fast silly dizzyhappy and lighttouching my heartdeeply wordless moment forever.
next universe comes next moment
worldly distractions and termswhy can’t we just leave that behind
simply Love and breathego for itas is?