until next
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never know when…
suddenly she appears againtakes me by surprise every time
she is standing close, with a certain deep blue eyed gaze, saying ‘hi, darling’that immediate rushy & sparky feeling in the gut, and sudden warmthso unexpectedno layers of protection, surge from nowhere
been like this, a brief contact, a nimble spark, and then she is goneand I forgetuntil next time
akin to having a very exquisite dessert in an unexpected place in the middle of nowherea sweet memory, but won’t find it again, and I shouldn’t look for it, leave it at thatit exists somewhere out there and in me, but hidden for the time being
suddenly she appears againwe did get a chance to talk for the first timewe are going to meet
that is all goodbut I hope the delicate mystery will not be gonebecause the uncertainty, instinct and wonder is subtle and hearthwarmingthe knowing is distinct and sometimes brutal